Friday, October 17, 2014

Favorite Friday Favorites

1. Jenny Owen Youngs-

2. Living a Creative Life-

3. Bat Ring-


4. Sophie Blackall-


5. Flea Market Filp on Netflix- 

Happy Friday, Friends!

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

31 Days of Writing: 'Kill Your Darlings' Review

John Krokidas' film, Kill Your Darlings is a frenetic account of the relationship between Allen Ginsberg and Lucien Carr during Ginsberg's freshman year at Columbia. In addition to ultimately being an intense true-crime chronicle, Kill Your Darlings is also an overview of some of the greatest Beat writers, in the early days of their literary revolution.

Although I've been itching to see this film since hearing about it's release in 2013, I didn't really have any expectations. I was excited to see Daniel Radcliffe in a role outside of the Harry Potter franchise, but didn't have any preconceived notions about this particular film. After viewing it, I am pleasantly surprised at how great this film really is.

While doing some research, I found that not only did they shoot Kill Your Darlings in 24 days on the Columbia campus, but this is John Krokidas' first film. Nothing about Kill Your Darlings feels like a first film.


The film begins with a young Ginsberg being accepted into Columbia university. Ginsberg is eager to get out into the world and even more eager to escape the suffocating effects of his mentally unstable mother (played wonderfully by Jennifer Jason Leigh) and his moderately well-known poet father (played by David Cross). Young Ginsberg struggles with being an American Jew during WWII, the desperate need to fit in and the contrasting & at times, combative view points of his professors.

Ginsberg finally finds a friend in Lucien Carr (played by Dane Dehaan), a charismatic  upper class student who has been expelled from more schools than you can count and who seemingly has a romantic relationship with a brilliant, yet tortured and perhaps obsessive David Kammerer (played by William C. Hall). As the film progresses, we see a previously straight-laced Ginsberg happily going down the highway of vice with Carr in the drivers seat. Ginsberg & Carr plan to start a revolution, beginning with a "new vision". Ginsberg, Carr & friends take mind-altering drugs & have near death experiences in an attempt to influence their writing. We also see the progression of sexual awakening and discovery in Ginsberg.

Kill Your Darlings is full of stand-out performances like Ben Foster as William S. Burroughs in all his Nitros Oxide-huffing & morphine-shooting glory and Jack Huston & Elizabeth Olsen as Jack Kerouac & Edie Parker. Dane Dehaan plays Carr in such a way that the viewer is in a constant state of feeling sorry for him and hating his guts. His obvious self-loathing makes him pitiable, but the viewer must ultimately decide if he's forgivable. Finally, even though Radcliffe spends the entire film in glasses, sweaters and slacks, I never once thought about his role in Harry Potter.

While several films in the last few years have portrayed the Beat generation as adventurers, free spirits and gin-soaked geniuses, this film definitely takes a different tone. While the film adequately denotes the tone of the world that the Beats were writing in and the fun they no doubt had while doing it, Kill Your Darlings never quite seems to buy into the hype and, at times, seems to ward against it.

If you are a lover of the beat writers, I encourage you to check this film out. I look forward to seeing more from Krokidas in the future because if Kill Your Darlings is any indication, he's a writer/director to watch.

Monday, October 13, 2014

31 Days of Writing: The Most Important Work

Some of you may know that I am the director of a children's ministry that partners one church with an elementary school in the area and allows trained & screened adults to meet with a child, that they have been carefully matched with, for one hour a week during the school year. 

I have been working with this ministry for four years now and I am still surprised by so many things about it. 

I am continually surprised that busy adults choose to be a part of our program; that they take time out of their busy weeks to leave work early, drive across town and miss time with their own families to sit in a classroom painting or reading with a child. I don't thank them enough. 

I continue to be surprised that our host teacher thanks me every week. That at the end of every email she sends me, she never neglects to tell me what a blessing this program is to the kids & to the teachers that work with them. 

I continue to be surprised that there is always a list of kids that need a mentor. That despite the fact we've been doing this for four years, the list isn't getting shorter. That the list is, in fact, getting longer. 

I continue to be surprised by things some of these children have to endure. No matter how much I know, I'm still surprised by the fact that I will never ever fully understand what it is like to be them. I hope I never stop being surprised by this. I hope I am always shocked & heart-broken, especially if they can't be because they've never known anything different. 

I need God to break my heart over this daily and to fill me with more than enough joy to share. I need to never be complacent about this job, because it might be the most important job I've ever had. 

Sunday, October 12, 2014

31 Days of Writing: 7 Things I Would Say to my Teenage Self

1. Don't Be Afraid to Like the Things You Like-

You like punk & country music.  It's okay to like films, Archie comics & fly fishing. It takes all kinds to make this crazy world go 'round. When you get a little older, you'll realize that all these oddly matched interests will make you an interesting, well-rounded person. Just try to pay a little more attention in Accounting class. That's a cool interest, too! And if someone doesn't like you because of something you're interested in? Well, one less person you have to lend your comic books to, I guess.

Dressed as Josie from Josie & the Pussy Cats during Freshman year


2. Your Parents Are Not the Enemy-

So don't treat them like they are. No matter how mad you get at them. No matter how you feel like they've wronged, disappointed or failed you. Because it doesn't matter how smart you think you are. You have NO idea what it's like to be an adult. Moms & Dads have a lot on their plates that you can't even wrap your head around. They aren't perfect and the sooner you learn that, the sooner you'll be able to cut them some slack. Because you know what? They cut you lots of slack. ALL THE TIME.

3. Get Used to Your Body, Kid. It's the Only One You Have-

Don't dress in boys jeans and sweatshirts all the time. Don't try to disappear into clothes that are too big for you. I know it seems crazy, but in reality they're making you look bigger. Listen to mom when she tells you you're beautiful, because she really sees you; all of you, and at this point, she's a much more reliable opinion than you are. 

Listen, you can't force this kind of thing and self-confidence will happen gradually on its own timeline, but just try to remember to ease up on yourself. 

With my brother at an awards ceremony, 16 years old 

4. Don't Be Afraid to Ask for Help-

You're truly awful at math & science but you're not stupid. You wouldn't let anyone else talk to you like that, so why do you let yourself? Learning algebra & biology is not impossible and learning these things is absolutely worth your time. Get a tutor or talk to mom. Don't be afraid to work hard and fail. That is the only way you're going to get better.

5.  Keep Working On Art-

Keep playing the euphonium. Work on your guitar daily. 29 year old Kimberly would KILL to have your chops. Hold on to the feeling of when you nail a really tough piece. You can't recreate it. Use it, don't lose it. Paint, draw, continue to collage even if no one gets it. You get it, don't you? Don't stop. 

6. Don't Worry About What Anyone Thinks of You-

Most of the time people are so caught up in worrying about what people are thinking about them, that they're not even thinking about you. 

Pro-tip: People can be mean. High school kids can be downright monstrous. I don't need to tell you. But that is not a reflection of you. Don't let their negativity make you sad, bitter or mean to others. You're not going to like this, but it doesn't really change as you get older. People just get better at hiding it. Focus on being kind. Focus on being generous. Focus on planting gardens rather than stomping on other people's flowers. You'll be happier for it. 

Now, the subject of dating: Crushes are fine, but try to stay grounded in reality. Have you ever actually had a conversation with the person you're obsessed with? Do you have anything in common or are you creating a person that you wish liked you? It doesn't do to put real people on pedestals that they can never live up to. You're setting yourself up for failure and them up to fail you. That's not really their fault.

Also "chasing boys/girls" is a misnomer. The real kicker is that the person that is perfect for you tends to show up when you stop looking. Also, you're 18! You have YEARS to think about dating! I'll let you in on a secret; Rick Destree is going to sweep you off of your unsuspecting feet when you're 23. He's going to see you in a way no one else ever did. He's worth the wait. Trust me. 

Playing video games at 17 

7. Do Things On You Own Even if You're Scared Stupid-

Years from now you will be so mad at yourself for missing out on experiences and events because you were too scared to go anywhere your own. Don't wait for mom to speak for you. Don't wait to see what your friends are doing and don't wait for an invitation. 

You might say something embarrassing. You might sit by yourself the entire night.  Who cares? You also might be miserable for 30 seconds before you meet someone who goes on to be one of your best friends! Who knows what's waiting for you out in that great big world. 

You'll never know unless you try. 

17 Year Old Kimberly 

Saturday, October 11, 2014

31 Days of Writing: Blackberry Kisses & Sharon Creech

In sixth grade, Mrs. Zabel read us Sharon Creech's Walk Two Moons over the course of several weeks. We would come in after lunch and recess, sit & listen as the story unfolded. I had always been a reader, but I remember falling in love with Salamanca and her story. I remember being so invested in the story and feeling like something was legitimately different after the story was finished. I will never forget the way I felt when we finished the book. I was one person at the beginning and I came out on the other side completely different. 

I have since read every book Sharon Creech has written and while I have loved most of them (Chasing Redbird, The Wanderer Bloomability are other favorites), Walk Two Moons is still in my top 5 favorite books of all time.  I love Sharon Creech because she doesn't patronize kids and she truly understands what it's like to be a child. Creech's characters feel things & experience things that are so real and at times heartbreaking. Their lives aren't perfect and they don't always understand why things happen the way they do and for this reason, it's easy to relate to them. She writes forgiveness & redemption in a way that have always appreciated and that has always stuck with me. 

As a girl, I appreciated that Creech wrote about girls that were far from perfect but were still excellent role models. They were strong and smart but vulnerable. I found myself identifying with so many of her characters & the situations they found themselves in. I can honestly say that Sharon Creech helped to make me into the person that I am today. 

If you haven't read any of Sharon Creech's books, I urge you to head down to your local library and check one out. You will not be disappointed. 

Walk Two Moons

Friday, October 10, 2014

31 Days of Writing: Gourd

Warning: I'm pretty crap at poetry but this is what got done today. 

A flame-colored pumpkin sits a'top our step, with a face carved in his head.

Walking home from school, a stranger I'd never met or seen had gifted him to me.

We cut him up and baked his seeds and set him out for all neighbors to see.

His smile is pleasant, but something tells me he will need to be fed.

What a strange notion, what a strange thought.

What could a pumpkin need to eat that could be bought!

The neighborhood cats have gone missing, there are signs on every pole.

Mother & Father wouldn't guess, how could they ever know!

But I think that our charming pumpkin could use a good throw.

He doesn't rot, he doesn't stink & I wonder if he has a soul?

He seems to move on his own by night.

It's up to me.

There will be a fight.

Art by Drinkdecaf

Favortie Friday Favorites

1. Lauren O'Connell Does Paul Simon's Graceland- 

2. Etsy Favorites- 


3. Watching the First Season of American Horror Story-

Earlier this week I started watching American Horror Story on Netflix. I kept hearing people talking about the show and I've seen the promos for the new season EVERYWHERE. While I'm only a few episodes in, I do like the show but there are certain elements that I like better than others. 

The flashbacks at the beginning of every episode are so solid and definitely my favorite part. While the show is pretty twisted (they definitely earn their TV-MA rating), stylistically the show is impeccable. One thing I will say is that I would recommend only watching one episode a day. Given the unrelenting darkness of the material, binge watching this show is bound to make you feel like a shell of a human being. 


4. Jack White is Quite Simply the Man- 

5. This-

Happy Friday, Friends!

2013 2014 31 Days 90's Anderson Farms antique apples art art shows back to school Barking Mad Arts baths Best Of Birthday black & white blogging Book Club book recommendations books Buffy the Vampire Slayer calender cats children Christmas Cindy Lesman Cinevore clothing clothing exchange Color Crush Colorado Colorado Floods comics Consignment cookie corn maze costuming crafts date night decor Destree's Doodles Disney DIY dog Dr. Who elf Fall family fantasy fashion fiction film Film Fashion films friday favorites Girls Night In Girls Night Out Goodwill Gourmet Supper Club Greeley Halloween hats holidays horror hosting Illustrations illustrators Indie Winter Arts Market inspiration James Hopkins JCP Joshua Hoffine Joss Whedon kids kiss Lauren Zurchin lists Love Letter to a Song makeup mantle marriage memories Modcloth monday motivation Motivational Monday movies Munchy Monday music nerd New Girl New Years October Old Navy parties photo an hour photos polyvore Primark Project Selfie pumpkin carving pumpkins Pushing Daisies recipe recipes redrum Rob Walker rum Saint Patrick's Day salted caramel Salvation Army Say Anything scary scunci Selfie short stories small business Saturday snow soup Spa Treatments Star Wars stationary steampunk Style Lend styling summer Target Thanksgiving theater Thoughtful Thursday Thrift thrifting Thrifting Thursday travel tv vacation Valentine's Day Victorian Cut-out Theater video games vine Vinted Walgreens watercolor Weekend Wrap-up Weld County wine Winter Wordless writing yard sale